Ugh I got issues!!! can ya help out?

sounds to me like you still like him, and he still likes you. If you think about him, and don't know why, and don't necessarily feel like it's a negative feeling, but you say you don't like him (which IS a negative feeling) then you're contradicting yourself. Seems to me that if you are looking at his picture, and you think of him...you are just telling yourself that you don't 'like like' him because you don't want to have to go back on stuff you said previously, and have others say things about it like, "I thought you didn't like him." or something similar. WHO CARES. If you like him again...you like him again. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks or will say about that. You liked him in 8th grade and now you're going to be a senior? You've grown up a bit more, I'm sure he has too, and guess what...everyone is entitled to change their mind about someone....it happens. People get married, divorced, and then remarry again. It's your heart. Don't lie to yourself....allow yourself to feel what you probably already feel and just don't want to admit it. If he's looking at you everytime you look at him he probably feels the same way.